Focus on recovery

It's only a WHIMSICAL NOTION I know, but wouldn't it be nice if everyone I knew and that includes family and friends., as well as health professionals . Would treat me as the person I am not as a list of SODDING symptoms from a definition of a mental health condition someone has labelled me with. It would be BLOODY MARVELLOUS!!!!! If they would allow me to have the normal human emotions they attribute to themselves. For example if I appear annoyed or pissed off, it's simply because I'm annoyed and pissed off. In the same way everyone else gets aggravated when things get up their nose. But of course I can't possibly be experiencing an ordinary human emotion or response to an infuriating or upsetting situation or circumstance. I have to be behaving that way because I suffer from mental distress. "Look out Dad's having one of his turns" or "Oh God the nutter's going off on one" or the mock sympathy approach "Are you all right?" If things are getting too much for you maybe you should take a break. "Is there anyone I can call for you"? "When did you last see your CPN/Psychologist/Psychiatrist or Counsellor"? Along with lots of other stupid meaningless phrases,
Well to you all I give this message "DON'T TRY TO FIX ME I'M NOT BROKEN" though I sometimes think my mouth is, as nothing I say seems to get through and everything I say, every simple action is always linked to my mental health issues. As an illustration just recently I said that I wanted to go to sleep and not wake up, so of course that means that I want to kill myself it couldn't possibly be that I've been so busy and am physically exhausted that I just want to get some sleep and build up my physical and mental reserves, I could have just as easily said I could sleep forever
.The thing is even if I was contemplating taking my own life then that's no one's business but mine ,it's my life it's up to me how I choose to end it and it certainly wouldn't be because I was depressed or felt life was no longer worth living.
So in conclusion I again proffer this heart felt appeal to everyone who knows me
"LEAVE ME ALONE, NOT EVERYTHING IN MY LIFE RELATES TO MY MENTAL ILLHEALTH, and most importantly DON'T TRY TO FIX ME I'M NOT BROKEN".